Aside

My unheard speech

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Sometimes love never happens in order.

It just pops up.

In one snap you’ll just find yourself flooded with feelings.

Sometimes

Love is the first song you hear in the morning.

The soft blows of air on your face.

It could be a new shoelace for your old rugged pair of sneakers.

A wild flower that grows on the road.

The brightest star on the night sky.

Or your first day of your freshmen year.

Or a smell of a book.

Or a ringtone on your smart phone.

Or a percentage of alcohol in a beer.

Or a coin on your purse.

Love is no coincidence.

It’s fate.

Love is everything.

It could be anything.

It could be something you already have.

Love could also be

a cherry blossoms on spring.

A maple leaf during fall.

A snowflakes on winter

and a sunburn during summer.

Or it could also be a rain at any time of the day.

Love is timely.

It is never early nor late.

It arrives on its own time and chance.

Yes.

Love is always like that.


 

Words that I never utter during my cousins wedding because I didn’t have the confident to deliver a speech.

 

Aside

My last goodbye

This is the last time I’ll think of you.

Why? I just don’t know.

Maybe I don’t care anymore.

I don’t know why. Why. Why. Why.

I never though I would feel this way.

Yes I loved you. But that word doesn’t mean anything now.

It doesn’t even matter now.

I’ve been killing myself.

Over and over again.

And I had enough.

Having always to plea for your time

for your attention.

for a bit of love.

This feeling is too much.

This craziness is insane.

I’m losing it.

I’ve been trying everything

but still everyday is like a misery.

but I’ll have to keep on moving anyway.

I should have move on along time ago

I should have let this feeling gone.

I just don’t know why it takes me long enough.

To realize you’re not worth the wait.

The tears.

The time.

The feelings.

And my unhappiness.

I have been caught up with my own emotions.

With my own feelings.

With my own selflessness.

I’ve never felt so low in my life

you’re the only one keep reminding me that.

Now I’m done. So done.

I made mistakes, yes.