Don’t cage your feelings.

Don’t isolate yourself because you are in pain. Just because someone ignores you or you’ve been rejected. You have to spread your wings and learn to fly.

On walking away


One day  you’re on the top of the world then the next thing is you will find yourself walking away from all the pains inside you. In the world where you can be alone and just sit and sip a cup of coffee and read an actual book. It’s temporary but  a comfort.

One reckless heart


You said your heart is mine back then and I lose it. But the truth is, I wish it was. Your tongue speaks lies again. And I just keep quiet and told myself. How can I lose something that I don’t own?

Thank you and goodbye 2017


2017 Started with me having my last bottle of alcohol.

I got the worst pain ever and I found myself immune to all pain killers. I consumed tons and tons and tons. I felt like dying back then. I learned I got a tumor on me. I thought I was dying but I overcome my fear. The pain feels like a threat. But I fought it. I didn’t allow my pain interfere with my work. I worked hard despite the pain. I didn’t complain. I didn’t give up. I shed tears. I cried silently until I can no longer hold the pain and I think at some point I wan’t to give up. But I didn’t.

Last 2017 is the time that I truly understand my pain.

This post is better late than not having to say goodbye to 2017.



Into the ground


I tried to fly

yet I can’t find my wings.

I drop to the ground

with nothing to hold on.

I fought being dragged down.

I grip into the darkness.

I struggle to survive

and keep on breathing.

Life have been drifted away

I’m barely alive

When I closed my eyes.

Everything stops.



The language of Seoul

I spent my few days in Seoul searching for an answer only to find out that there’s a lot more than having to seek for my “whys” in life. Seoul is a place where love can be felt in almost all places. It’s a place to love, be loved, to find love and to start a new life and even shares your own frustrations. Seoul is and will always be in which you can express your feelings, where you can say what you truly feels through songs, letters and poems. Starting from the streets, cafe, restaurants, buses, trains, historical places and even on walls and staircases.

I fall in love, I fall out of love in Seoul.



Better left

Somethings are better left unnoticed because it could create unpleasant effects if we would give our attentions to it.

Some words are better left unexpressed because it could hurt other people even if it’s true.

Some feelings are better left unexpressed because we don’t have the right to show and feel it.

Some ways are better left undone because we could aggravate what’s already been a mistake.

Some people are better left unloved because they are not even worth it.

Some rights are better left non fight because we know we will not gonna win in the end.

It’s so hard to bear that there are factors in life that’s better left untouched because they don’t make any difference at all. It would be a lot more easier for us if we would just leave it as it is, no more no less.

Just as it is.